March 4, 2016
Hey everyone….I know it’s been awhile since I have written anything here and there is a reason. I tried an experiment to see if staying off of my blog during my second IUI process, especially the tww (2 week wait), would help me pass the time without being obsessive and impatient with waiting for my results of baby or no baby. I have thrown myself into work and wrapping up what I need to finish my certification process with iPEC and that helped, overall. So here is what has been happening….
We did our second IUI two weeks ago and we were encouraged because Jon’s numbers were double what they were for the first IUI and we BD’d (baby danced/had sex) that night after the IUI which our doctor recommended to us. This was a big deal because the first IUI the doctor who performed it was not our normal doctor (it was during a holiday week) and that doctor never told us to have sex that night….grrrr!!! This time, I had a positive attitude, was doing many things that are healthy and fulfilling for me so, in the back of my mind, I believed this time we would get pregnant….sadly, I was wrong, so our second IUI was not successful as far as us getting pregnant. So, what now………
Jon and I discussed it today and decided we still want to keep trying the IUI process as the doctor has recommended and surprisingly, I was only slightly emotional over the failure of the IUI. Today was the first home spring training game for the Cubs and since Jon and I are HUGE Cubs fans and we live in Arizona, we have season tickets and were at the park today tailgating with all the other Cubs fans. When I saw all of the parents with small children there together experiencing America’s Past Time, my heart tore open a bit because I want us to be able to do that with at least one child. Baseball is nostalgic for us because it was huge part of our childhood, especially for Jon and he would love to teach a child about baseball and how great it is. Experiencing that without our own child is why we want to keep trying because it shows us what we feel is truly missing from our life.
Ironically, I saw a post on Facebook today that made me realize how important today is for us. The post read, “Today is the only day of the year that tells you to do something,” and it took me a minute to get it (I am blonde, after all, lol) but today is March 4th…March FORTH………..so, that is what I will do until I know in my heart that it is time to change directions….
Hope all is well with you and that whatever is going on for you that you keep marching forth every day of the year…
Love and baby dust,
-Sarah