January 31st, 2016
Well, it’s been awhile since I last posted in here and I apologize for being so quiet (believe me it is NOT the norm for me) however, life has been up and down since the new year and I have recently got my equilibrium back so I am getting back into the swing of things.
So, I went to Seattle for my last 3 day training for my coaching certification and it was a phenomenal experience, so much so that Jon noticed the shift in my attitude and energy just by talking to me on the phone while I was there (shout out to any of my iPEC coaches reading this post) so I came home feeling refreshed and focused, ready to get to work on every aspect of my life. That first week after training, I was so physically tired and couldn’t understand why other than I believe when there is a dramatic shift in one’s energy the body may be late on catching up to it. However, I began making some serious adjustments to my daily routine that match my energetic focus which is my health, my coaching business and my infertility journey.
First change was that I got back into my routine of walking my dogs every day and we are up to a 3 mile route. This was huge for me because from May to October I had been taking them on a 1.5-2 mile walk 6 days a week, not only for their benefit but for me to hopefully lose some weight. I also changed my diet in this time to be organic, limited complex carbs, lean meats, fruits and veggies…and I didn’t lose one single pound in five months (I was so PISSED, to say the least). Now in August I learned that I had hypothyroid, which I was put on medication for and in October my level was normal again…BUT, no weight loss!!! I was so frustrated that I gave up on it and did not take my dogs out walking again until the middle of January, I did stick to my diet with the exception of the holidays (everyone gets a pass for Thanksgiving, their birthday, Christmas and New Years, right???) and I keep taking my thyroid medication, so when I weighed myself in mid January no change in my weight AT ALL!!!! I didn’t know whether to be happy or dumbstruck by this because it seems my body is stuck at a certain weight and refuses to budge…GRRRRR!!!!! So now with walking 3 miles per day with the pooches (believe me they love it and even though they are small dogs, it doesn’t phase them to walk that far at a brisk pace) I have also added the My Fitness Pal app to my phone and am tracking my food intake, eating the same kinds of foods I have been. I basically have cut bread, pasta, processed anything and sugar from my diet and I am doing really good with it. Fingers crossed, this time I get results.
The other change I have made is my focus on building my coaching business. I have quite a bit of work to complete to get my CPC certification but I am making a concerted effort every day to get that checklist of things completed. I probably won’t be completely done until March, but meanwhile I am updating my website, putting together a workshop and newsletter for all of my potential clients grappling with this journey of infertility.
The last change I have made is that I am working on waking up everyday and having an attitude of gratitude and thinking positive thoughts throughout the day, along with more prayer and reading of Scripture to strengthen my resolve with the two MAJOR unknowns about my life right now…whether I will ever bear a child and where Jon and I are supposed to live and put down roots. Jon has really been struggling with the latter and I the former, lately. We are living in limbo right now and I am REALLY having a hard time with it. I am a planner and doer, so limbo and I do not get along. THIS is why I pray every day and am working on a daily positive attitude. It is really hard but I try to take it one day at a time…meanwhile, we are making plans for our trip home in May when my niece is born….well, scratch that…we aren’t making travel plans as much as I am trying to prepare myself for holding a newborn while I am potentially not pregnant. That should be a test of my energetic resolve and my faith (sigh) but a baby is always a blessing, no matter the circumstance (my personal belief) so I will try to keep it together and enjoy my family welcoming the newest member of the Payne family.