January 10, 2016
Hey everyone! Hope you all have had a great Sunday and this post finds you well. Today, I am feeling pretty good but am tired on top of the other symptoms that have been consistent for about the last week…again, I have no idea if this means that I am in fact, pregnant or if it is just this dang progesterone that is making me feel different.
Anyway, I’m trying not to think about that too much since I still have three days to wait for my blood work and know if when I travel to Seattle on Thursday I will be celebrating with my best friend, Maggie, with something non-alcoholic or if I will be drinking away my disappointment at the bar with her…either way, I will be glad to be in her company if I can’t be with Jon. Jon will be working and I have my coaching conference starting on Friday morning in Seattle which goes through the weekend.
Today, Jon and I tried out a new church that is really close to our home and really liked it a lot. We have been looking for a church for a few months now, hoping to find a place where we both feel comfortable and we fit. You see I am Catholic and have always been very comfortable with being Catholic, however, Jon is not sure he feels that the Catholic faith is for him. So, we decided it is most important for our marriage and future family that we attend the same church. We were married in the Catholic Church, so that makes me feel better about the compromise.
Church for me has always been not only a place for community and prayer but for reflection and inspiration that carries me through anything that is tough…..and this week will be tough, especially if this time doesn’t work out. I do believe in God’s time frame, but I am human and fight it when it is not MY time frame…I continue to work on this and pray about it. I am already 36 years old and know that I don’t have much time left to have children especially if we want more than one (which we do), so it is hard to not feel like you are under a gun with trying to make a baby and who wants to feel like that???
I really did like this church we went to, and the community there, so I am sad I will be in Seattle next Sunday and won’t be able to attend, but we will be back in two weeks hopefully with a full heart AND a full womb!!!!
I will continue to make entries daily, no matter what happens so please continue to follow along…you never know what life holds day to day!
Blessings and love to all,
Sarah